I feel happy, but I feel strange. There’s change in the air, but not sure what type of change. I’ve not gone as far as I should’ve but could go further. The tiniest things that are seen insignificant, have the highest value for me. Though at this year, starting in bottom is common. This change… It intimidates me. I push myself to go beyond what’s expected but I can get exhausted. Having been there I hope it’s reciprocated. Said it wouldn’t matter but others seem to notice. Saturated in acquaintances but no true friend. This is how I have to express it.